Well, Teen Mania has once again layed people off.  I will be honest and say that it is emotionally difficult to bare.  We all love TM so much, but can't help feeling betrayed and hurt.  I've spent a lot of time praying and reading scripture and choosing not to be bitter, only to have words come out of my mouth and tears well up in my eyes that leave no doubt that the process is not over. 

I am very thankful that Nate still works there.  Still, I find myself having to fight to be fully supportive. I have come to the conclusion that my trust must be in the Lord.  I want to be nervous for Nate, to be skeptical and guarded, and have a plan B - but I've met people that live their lives like that, I don't want to be that person.  In truth, we must rely on the Lord to lead us.  He is faithful and He has drawn Nate to TM and He drew me there, and He knows what He is doing. 

I have seen His provision in my life and in the lives of my friends.  His plan is going forward, unhindered.  It is wonderful to watch and stand in faith and know He has it taken care of. 

I will be starting a wonderful job in a few days.  It pays well, so I will be able to work very part time and concentrate on school.  Classes start in a few days and I am excited to get started again.  I can take an extra class, and if things work out, finish a whole semester earlier than if I had stayed with Teen Mania. 

I have had 3 weeks with no work.  At first I didn't think I would be able to bear the loneliness of being home alone all day.  But,  with the layoffs increasing, my friends now have plenty of time to hang out.  And, my dear friend Jen Salsgiver is staying here until she can find a job and apartment.  I love her company and it could not have come at a better time. 

Lord Jesus, we trust you.  Please complete the work you have begun in our hearts.  May this next season be just as you have planned it and desire it to be.